How time flies so fast we didn't even realise it's gone is beyond my thinking. When 2011 starts, all I think is about having fun and not giving a damn about what's going on in life. And it turns out that I'm not really having fun and I have to give a damn about what's going on in life. But what 2011 really taught me is that I'm not me. And I realised when I'm living with all these pretends, I lost my true self in the process of 'knowing myself'.
That struck me like a lightning piercing through my soul. It's just weird and I had to tell myself over and over again that I lost myself, I lost myself to me. It's hard and it's like I've knew it all along but the confession is just showing itself now.
Or maybe I'm just changing. Like other people change, I changed. Maybe that's just it. I changed to a new person that I don't know. I don't get it, how life could be so complicated, I just don't get it.
I'm just lost.
