Being a teenager is hard, and I'm not even a step into adulthood yet.
You constantly have to satisfy everyone and fill these hopes that they have. And you just want to scream, cry, trash and hit something at the same time just to give them the message that you're not this perfect human being, you can't fulfil their high hopes of you, and you never will.
As you're trying to get those message across, they'll think you're being a rebel, a stubborn teenager that's good for nothing. And the pain of those words are hitting you like a thousand knives tearing you apart but they don't understand. They never do.
Being the strong-hearted person that you are, you try again and again. But the results are still the same forcing you to give up. And them, they scold you, beat you up, planting those hurtful scenes inside your brain with the quotes engraved in it. That's when you feel like the whole world is crashing down on you, mocking you, blaming you for everything they could put their fingers on.
You feel like they're ganging up on you, to make your life miserable enough so that you don't even know what it's like being happy. You cry at nights, feeling like there's no reason to live anymore. You feel insecure, your confidence flies out the window making you a shell. Like you're already dead inside and the light leave you behind in the dark. A total darkness, lost. You feel lonely without being alone.
The bad thing is; no one knows about all of this. Because you keep it as a secret, a shameful one that no one deserves to know about it all. All they see are the laugh, the jokes, and the smiles. They don't see the hurt you feel, the betrayal, and the crumble of your self-esteem.
You surround yourself with a thick wall shielding you from the pain but no matter how hard you try, they keep coming in destroying you piece by piece. You tell yourself that it's going to get better, this pain will go away someday.
With that small flicker of hope, you move on. To a hopefully something better in the future although deep inside, you're just hollow.
