I never knew that it'll come to this .
For me to ever realize how hard life is .
It's breaking apart now , and they are blaming me for turning my back on them .
I'm still wondering is it me ? Though I keep telling myself that they are the one doing it .
Everyday , I can't look at them or even talk to them .
Every time they're near me , I just back away .
I just don't want to be hurt , no more .
This is the only way , I wish that all of you can see me for who I am .
Instead you just keep saying how bad I am and never once you look at the bright side .
It's not like I'm not trying , I did .
But every single time , you put that blame on me .
I tried to do everything to make you proud of me , it doesn't work .
The way you look at me just makes me want to lock myself in my room and shut myself from the outside world .
When I try to close my eyes at night , this pain shot trough my heart and the tears just keep flowing .
I just keep telling my heart that you love me or even like me .
Who am I kidding , you never did . Right ?